I want to cry but I cannot. I want to remember everything And the knowledge that in time I will forget Breaks my heart. I want to cry so hard that the sky will break. I want to shed tears. I want to shed tears for what could’ve been, For what could be, For what was, But I don’t know how. My soul won’t let me. My brain won’t let me. And my eyes cannot get wet However much I think of it. I wish to drop down to my knees, To sink my face in a pillow And get drunk into a pool of tears; But something inside me isn’t working. I just want to remember And keep it with me forever. I want to cry so loud that all the generations Ahead and behind me Will hear it. I want to cry so hard That my heart Would build itself anew.